Disconnected

For years pups had been telling herself that she was pathetic, that no-one would ever like her let alone love her the real pups... so pups put up barriers, she created this cage inside of her a trapped the real pups, the pure essence of her being away forever... pups was never going to allow her true self to shine, that way she would never be hurt, she would never feel pain. yet what pups was actually doing was denying herself, killing herself drowning in the pure hatred she had for herself, and the realisation of this was pups was disconnected she was seperate from the world seperate from herself.

As if by magic Ms came into her life, to pups Ms was this divine Goddess she was the woman pups wanted to be, the erotic sensual being . Ms was pups inspiration, she had her placed high up on a pedestal, Ms was perfect in every way, how could pups ever be like that. pups started to question why Ms would even give her the time of day, she was nothing and yet Ms was spending this time with her, how long would it last, how long before Ms found out that pups was worthless.